You forgot what you have achieved

 Have you ever felt that you have not achieved anything, or that you have not done something "big", or "important" that impacts or helps society. I have felt it, or at least that is what I thought. Many times I take for granted everything I have achieved and everything the Universe has given me and how everything I have desired has come true.

One day while I was on my way to work, I found myself with a grumpy attitude, a little bitter, a little victim, thinking that nothing good was happening to me, thinking about the future, that I couldn't achieve my goals due to lack of effort and I constantly tormented myself with what I had to do to be successful and to be better every day through meditations, manifesting, working out, stomach vacuum exercises, writing, reading, following the law of attraction and being positive, trying to do endless things, even when I didn't have time.

I don't know if it has happened to you, but instead of enjoying the present moment, being aware of breathing and being alive, I only thought about what I must do to become better. All of this beautiful rituals as meditation, manifesting, writing, reading, resting, doing yoga became turned  unenjoyable when I started being obsessed by doing all of them in one day, because they must be done calmly, being vulnerable, surrendering to that idealization of reaching the unattainable, when we stop the desire of having absolute knowledge.

One day at my work, one of my colleagues had a light in herself and a willingness to help, to do things with enthusiasm, with love, without complaining, and it made me think, I want to be like her, wherever I work, no matter what, I want to radiate light, harmony and serenity.

Suddenly, back home after work, my chip changed and I said to myself, well Laura, stop complaining, you're driving, you're comfortable, with your own music, in your own car. About a year ago you didn't know how to drive a car, even to turn it on, and now you have achieved it. 

It seems that I have forgotten everything that with great effort, I have achieved.  

Everything we want in life is going to happen at an unexpected moment, because the Universe waits for us to be ready, to receive what we manifest consciously or unconsciously, of course that is clearly linked to action, habits and attitude.

Remembering that there are also bad or sad moments, and that is okay, we must go through that pain to heal, grow and not make the same mistakes. I believe that if you and I start to remember, we will find achievements that we take for granted, and that many times life itself puts us on other paths, so valid and beautiful, life flows, and sometimes it reminds you of the  correct path, we just have to be attentive, listen to our body, nature, our surroundings, see how positive accidents can occur and beautiful miracles can happen.

I want to share with you the beautiful things that have happened to me: I studied finance, but honestly I sucked at that, I was always more artistic, and after mi mamá noticed that I was stressed with so many numbers and economics, she gave me the opportunity to change my career (because my parents fortunately financed my studies) I remembered that I liked adds and and creativity and one of my friends told me, why don’t you study advertising? Well I did it, I finished it and I met some incredible friends with whom we danced, we enjoyed uff , from there came my hermamiga with whom we preserved our friendship.

I have managed to live in Australia, where I have been for 5 years. I have wanted this since I was a child. The fact of venturing out, living away from my family, caused me a lot of curiosity. Living near the beach was something I had always dreamed of. I saw it as impossible for me as a citizen of Bogotá, a cosmopolitan city, with many buildings, beautiful yes, but without a beach, so living near the beach is unbelievable. Swimming against the waves in the ocean at 6am with the sunset, with my beautiful coach from Spain and a group of wonderful motivating people, leaving those excuses behind to do what I liked so much, being in contact with the water, the sand, the beautiful energy of the sea, the contact with the nature was so refreshing and made me feel so alive and grateful.

I managed to get to know my culture through my Latin friends, have my first jobs in a city as big and beautiful as Sydney, interact with Australians by being a nanny, the girls and boys I took care of helped me do a lot of introspection, remember my childhood , be more grateful to my parents.

Having my partner from another country, I always wanted my boyfriend to speak a different language, to have a different culture so together we could learn something new. The truth is that, between us, I felt like I was going to be single forever, because well, it's hard for me to be a woman in silent, I speak up, I'm honest, I'm not the most super feminine flirty lady, I wanted someone who contributes to me, who wasn't one of those guys who boast about what they have and what they don't have (like just focusing on material), and well... this lovely man appeared, he welcomed me with his beautiful family, with whom we have a home, and together we have our dog called Kiwi, the dog of our dreams, I always wanted a Border Collie.

I got my driving license as I mentioned, it was from scratch with the help of my boyfriend and my mother-in-law. I work as a swimming teacher, I mean I never imagined that I would become a swimming teacher, which I find fascinating, the fact of teaching and helping children to swim, and feeling happiness when the kids pass the level and get a new skill is exciting. I can communicate in another language, it just fills my soul.

Working at the café and meeting people from many countries and different cultures, with whom we have shared, hanging out and I have found many similarities as an immigrant despite not being from the same country, it is wonderful. Identifying with each other and sharing our feelings.

Went to Sean Paul's concert, I mean one of my favorite singers. I started reading and finished the books actually, it is enriching, this makes me very happy. I Have my breakfast ritual with nutritious food and a book of gratitude, start my projects even if it's 20 minutes of time I have, exercise frequently, start prioritizing my time, availability at work and well I am pretty sure I will keep achieving more but with no rush.

With this, I simply want to remind you that everything we want, in one way or another happens, and although sometimes when we achieve our goals the most, we want more and more, it is good to take a pause because when we force and force ourselves, we block our own energy, It's not healthy. One thing at a time, one step at a time. Allow life to surprise us, let it flow, trust and be authentic, celebrate our small achievements, be kind and patient because we will achieve everything, we are beings in construction, every process is perfect and our life as it is, is wonderful.

Don't forget what you have achieved, because big or small it adds to the world.

Con cariño.

Laura Maria.